In LA and spending my

December 04, 2002

In LA and spending my creative energy on the short verse put to music. I guess that's playing on my strengths? Over 30 years old...this is the way. I'm open to new tricks but I'm starting to understand the knee jerk parts of myself. I can see where my instincts are going to take me before they take me there. This is either double encrypted ESP or a deep rut in the road. I think this "gift" was bestowed upon me yesterday or the day before. Not knowing myself at all might have been a better option. A couple of drinks and I'll be back to the day before yesterday anyway. I could lose this power and not feel like I lost anything. It may parallel the secret ability to see through bathroom doors. Fun for a day and then you find out something you really didn't need to find out. The German's usually have a word for things like this. They must have a one word name for "a magical skill that you wish you never had". Maybe it sounds something like "Geshundefaut" . My geshundefaut can get in the way of pure thought. It predisposes me to think I will come up with the wrong idea before I even road test the first idea. Geshundefaut is the enemy of pure anlmal cunning. A cheetah has no geshundefaut. Wait ...it could be that the cheetah does suffer if, maybe, the water buffalo appears just too big and mean. The cheetah would override its instinct to strike when geshundefaut says, "he's too big and today you don't want to get blood on your pretty spots". Cheetah resents this overriding voice when the pangs of hunger accelerate into sundown and there's no time left for smaller prey. Double encrypted ESP appears as second guessing. The upside is when this type of geshundefaut appears as a way out. It allows you to construct quick excuses that are totally plausible. You have a solid alibi in place before the petty crime is even fully conceived. Perhaps this will lead to opportunities in script writing for cop shows.