I just read that last

April 03, 2003

I just read that last post. Usually I just type on this thing like its a loom and soon there is enough cloth and I throw on the shawl. I don’t usually proof read. When I read it tonight I realized it looked negative when it was meant to be positive. I guess I should read then to see whether they best captured what I meant. Not knowing what I mean is a big part of the process so I’m a little torn. What I meant by this last post was that I always feel like every musical day is a new one and I was marveling at how this could be possible taking into account that I am supposed to be a “veteran”. Am I not supposed to be embittered and crotchety by now? That was where I was going. Maybe I never got there. I also think its OK to suck sometimes. My impression on what sucks about a particular Craig show is much different than what a Craig enthusiast might think. People reach a state of competence in their professions and hobbies and there is sometimes a blurry no man’s land between that competence and the transcendence in the distance. My music is a selfish pursuit designed for my pleasure and that of my henchpeople. I have to have loved the experience for me to think my own show was any good. I’m glad when other people have enjoyed the music, and I take great satisfaction in that, but if I know it could have gone better I start to look to the next opportunity before I’ve even toweled off. That’s all. Without a bit of nervous energy and doubt I think things would get boring. Off we go.